Light in the Darkness

I haven’t said anything yet on what happened last week on Facebook or on here. I have seen a lot of other people talk about it but the thing is that it bothers me. It does, all the way to my core, but I never know what to say…. my words and thoughts just don’t seem to be good enough or significant enough to really cover the pain and heartache that these poor families are facing.

The last week  made me think about a lot of things…  

I do believe that people who want guns for self-protection should be able to have them and people who like to hunt for the sport of it should be able to, BUT I do not believe that anyone who is not actively serving in a war should have any kind of assault rifle. I just don’t see the point, even if that person is responsible who is to say that person won’t one day snap, or that someone else unstable could get a hold of it? These types of guns should be put away. Also, I believe that it should be a little harder to obtain a gun. Make sure that every single person who has one gets a background check, and passes a gun safety course. Also, hold them accountable if anything ever happens with their gun, if someone takes and commits a crime, the gun owner is responsible too. I grew up around guns, I have shot guns and have  been hunting. Guns do not scare me, it’s the people who have the guns in thier hands.

Also, there have been times when having a gun around would make me feel safer. Hypothetically, if someone broke in my house and I were to hold a gun up and tell them I had a gun, more than likely they would back off, or at least I would have  a fighting chance. I don’t believe in taking all guns away at all… but I think the good people who want guns will be ok with a little bit of stricter laws. We can’t ignore this and something has to be done!

Also,  I feel ashamed of the media…. I know it’s their job and some of the reporters are pressured by their bosses to get the juiciest story,  but I feel it SO disrespectful of the families going through this though. Imagine if this were your family or close friend going through this and everywhere you turn there is the horrific picture of your grieving family member… or there is the story reminding you exactly what happened and the things these poor babies experienced. Leave these people alone and let them start the to heal.

Last but not least, I thought a lot about God during this last week. I have what I would call a pretty strong faith, but I saw where people would question where  God was during this and I have seen faith-based leaders argue over whether God was punishing us as nation for the things we have been doing… my opinion, is that I don’t know any of  the answers to this, I don’t know if this was a wake up call or what. I heard on the Christian radio the other day, a talk on this and this seemed to make the most sense to me, they said that obviously this is a fallen world and we as individuals also have free will. It is God and he can do what he wants, so he could have stopped it but for some reason didn’t, but God didn’t MAKE this happen, and that he is grieving along with us. I love that thought. That the God of the universe feels the same grief we do over this. It sounds cliché and I hate saying it, but he has plan we just don’t know the extent of it.  I can already see some of God’s goodness come out of this. I think that as a nation we have all became closer. People have been more compassionate (mostly). I saw this on the news yesterday and made me so happy to see. Ann Curry tweeted about the shooting and decided to honor the 20 children and do #20acts of kindness (eventually it turned into #26acts) and people all over the world tweeted in their random acts of kindness. Imagine if this was an everyday thing!!

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All of this to say, God is in this… he was with the students and teachers in the school that day, he was with the teachers who sacrificed  their own lives to save their students  and he is with all of us now. It’s not going to be an easy recovery and we will never fully be the same again, but there is still hope.

“I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.” – John 16: 33

In Remembrance:

I was in my 4th grade on April 19th 1995 at 9:02 AM. I believe we working on an art project. I remember my teacher (student teacher to be exact) crying. At the time I didn’t know what was happening. Later, at home and with the days that followed I slowly began to “somewhat” understand. As much as my 8-year-old brain could process, that something bad had happened.

It was the Oklahoma City  Bombing in downtown Oklahoma City. A turning point in our state’s history. The biggest terrorist attack on American soil until 9/11.

As a community – as state – as a nation even, we pulled together and we overcame. To this day we are still overcoming but I believe we are stronger than we once were.

We come here to remember those who were killed, those who survived and those changed forever. May all who leave here know the impact of violence. May this memorial offer comfort, strength, peace, hope and serenity.® via

We will never forget.  Visit the official website here. Take a minute today to honor those who were killed, injured, and those who risked their own lives to help others 17 years ago today.