The other day in the car Richard asked me – “Why don’t you ever write on your blog anymore?”
I couldn’t give a very good, straight answer. I don’t really know. Boredom maybe. laziness? Maybe even it started feeling intimidating when I would read other girl’s blogs and see how cool they are and I feel like mine lacks in comparison.
I started thinking though – does it matter if anyone really reads this? No.
Do I genuinely like to blog. Yes.
So… I am back!
Here are some things to catch you up on what’s been going on in my little life.
- Still with Richard. Going on 6 months now! Wow!! Where does the time go?!
Remember my dating plan? I would say it went very well.
- I still love all my original TV shows but have added a new one. Walking Dead. I am pretty much obsessed. It’s so good… I have caught myself up to the end now and I may have withdraw symptoms until the next season starts in February. Warning: It is really gory, what do you expect though from a tv show about zombies…but still so good! Does anyone else love this show?
- December is going to be a busy month with the holidays, the Christmas parties, college graduations (Yah!! Congrats Sarah, my roomie!) and spending time with family. I will try to update more often like I used to until then here are some of Instagram pictures. I have been slacking there as well.. oops!
As always you can follow me in real-time on Instagram @amandawatkins2
Well… it’s been awhile since I have done a post on this topic. Warning this post could get quite wordy. I am just telling you up front…
As I said in this post here, I am dating someone exclusively.
Remember these post: Part 1, Part 2, Part 3?
So, I started this experience back in February/March… it was a crazy, new, different, fun experience.
I met guys on Match and other random places and I would date them. They all knew about each other for the most part, or at least knew I was dating others.
There were times when I got confused or drained or tired. Some weeks I was going out almost every night plus working at my church child care center a couple of nights a week.
One time, this is embarrassing to admit, but I had a dream that I had all of them there on one date (except in the dream it wasn’t really any of them.) and I couldn’t remember any of their names and was getting them all confused! That’s when I decided to narrow things down and quit adding more. It just was becoming overwhelming.
So, I backed off Match – and after talking to a couple of them and my counselor (yes, I go to counselor – just to talk to someone about things.) I decided that I wasn’t really going to go anywhere with any of them if I didn’t put in a little more effort with any of them, and really try so I kept the ones that I was still interested in, who were also still interested in me. (Keep in mind I talked about 3 of these guys into doing the same thing – So I knew they were also dating other girls.) I don’t know how to explain this except for there was no pressure from anyone…it was the first time I was communicating up front and they were too and I was building up friendships. Yeah, some of them backed out and I obviously backed out on them too but it was respectful and it was honest. I am still friends with some of them, and really respect and admire them and truly wish them the best!
Now… let’s talk about how this exclusive thing happened:
Do you remember this post or this one??
Well…these seem to be my most popular post. Why? Beats me… maybe people find humor in my sad life. Haha… kidding! I have a great life actually. I just kind of suck at dating.
I still believe in what I said in my first post and still believe that this is the way to do it, it’s just a lot harder than it seemed to be. It somewhat overwhelmed me and I felt like I wasn’t really getting to know anyone. So, I narrowed it down and decided to NOT add anymore… well then now, I am kind of at a standstill.
I think now at this moment, I am going to take a small break, just for a while and then maybe I will try again soon.
I will promise you this though, if I ever do get married and something were to happen where I have to date again, I will not do. I actually loathe it…. Not tying to be negative, but it’s.just.so.hard. Maybe I am making it harder than it needs to be I don’t know.
Who knows… we will just see what happens!
Remember this post?
It’s been a few weeks since I wrote about how that is actually going.
The whole point of the book is to keep your numbers up for a while.
I was doing good. I had about 3-4 dates a week for a couple of weeks…but as people phased out, which is natural, instead of replacing them (that sounds bad – What I mean is keeping a steady number of dates.) I started focusing my attention on one.
Which, wouldn’t be bad if it was mutual. It turns out, I believe, that he was really into the game. He thought it since I was dating others I was more challenging. Which is good if I would have played it right. He tried and wooed me and it was good. I gave in too soon though. (Not like that.) I just quit trying to be a chase and started hanging out with only him. I didn’t do anything I can think of that would automatically make him like me any less.
I am sure you can guess what happened next: We went from talking everyday and hanging all the time to nothing. Nada. Zilch. He won’t respond to my text anymore nor does he text me anymore.
Oooooohhh…yeah… that sucks.
I should have done what I said I would do and still saw other guys. I should have made him work a little a harder a little longer. Until Maybe? I don’t know. This is where I always suck in the dating world. I can get them but I can’t keep them.
Anyways, so now I am starting over. Back to the drawing board. Getting my numbers back up. I am not going to dwell on any of this and besides it hasn’t been that long anyways… he could come back around. If he does – that’s fine. He will just have to woo me again is all.
Anybody else out there ever been in a similar situation? How do you deal with guys disappearing? Or maybe any guys out there can explain to me why you do this and give me some advice!
So… I LOVED Tumblr – but apparently it did not have the same feelings for me. 😦
Constant crashing – everytime I made a post. See old Tumblr post here!
I miss blogging, so I thought I would give it another try on a new site. We shall see…
So as far as updates: Nothing too exciting here in my little world.
I did see this via, and I thought since I just had a birthday- why not make a new tradition: So here are my 26 goals before 27:
Also – I now have a pinterest account. Follow me here.
I feel like blogging on and on…but I will save you of that and wait until later to blog some more. 🙂